The Sign Has Shown

Innalillah...

My deepest concern and sorrow goes to every human being in the world. I know you've heard the breaking news of tsunami attacking Japan and most probably other coastal areas  which are under warning alert. It is sad but these are all natural disaster and we have no power against it, only Allah The Almighty, hence keep on seek for Allah's help. Pray hard that everything goes well. 

If you haven't seen the video yet, checkout this link here!!

The world is heading towards its end, and are we ever ready yet? In fact, AM I READY yet?? That's for us to think and ponder.

O Allah, dari Kamu kami datang, dan kepada-Mu jualah kami akan kembali.

Beautiful Sunday

Well, who says when Sunday comes, laziness strikes?

At least not to us this weekend. Hehe we had activities that bonded us together, more like family-thingy activities. Woke up in the morning (you know my usual mornings :p) and got ready for the weekly ta'alim at the neighborhood. I had to bring Lulu 'Aayesha often to program that gives her "makanan rohani" if you get what I mean. Yeah of course, besides reciting Al-Qoran to her, she needs to listen to Hadiths too. Alhamdulillah, she behaved well and kept herself busy holding keys. Yes, she likes to hold everything except her toys. >.<

On the other hand, hubby did the laundry. You heard me right. He thought that it was somewhat a new hobby to him. Haha. So I helped him around and lipat baju. Wahh piles of it!!

Ade dua lagi bakul *nangess huaaaaa*

And....

Lulu's first time swimming!!

After swimming, we cooked our late lunch together. We had

Ikan Siakap masak tiga Rasa

Hubby : Pasni tak payah gi makan kedai lagi...
Me: Nape pulak??
Hubby: Sebab awak masak pon dah sedap macam kedai....
Me: '__" cakap jelaa sedap tak perlu lah ayat berkias hah

Tired

So, how was your Sunday??

World's Most Romantic Hotels

At least to what this link think so..

http://travel.yahoo.com/p-interests-37648727

Slap my face, course right now I'm dreaming that I'm at Shangri La's Paris. Hehe. Speaking of which, I still remember our first night together as a newly wed at Shangri La's Putrajaya, and we spent the night like there's no other night. It was the most unforgettable wedding gift of my big brother and sister in law. Wow, boleh belanja lagi one night stay for our soon coming anniversary? :p

The view from our room

The balcony. Sorry too lazy to rotate. Hehe

Our messy bed.

The doors that attached near to our bed. So easy to get up for bath time.

You can even peek through. Hehe

My dear waiting for the spa massage.

At the hotel lobby

Oh well, I was actually in the mood of searching Malaysia's most romantic hotels by the way. So if you guys happen to know any places that worth going and to stay, please leave a comment. Tq.

P/s: Mr Superman, love you more!!

kuda ku lari gagah berani!!

seronok tgk org lain melahirkan anak...
me on the other hand, telah pertama kali mendengar bunyi jantung kamu dengan jelas sekali...
jelas sungguh kuat and berdegup laju seperti kuda yang gagah berlari...aku tak tipu...
dalam diam aku menitis air mata...
sukar untuk ungkap perasaan itu...


aku mulai terima kehadiran kamu.... :)

MBA (masa boring anda)

blogging now seems a bit challenging for a lazy-ass like me yahhh...getting my ass to sit down and write something, is a major problem, let alone putting my damn fingers on the keyboard and type is yet another story...hahhhhh!!tired...ok i know i know...i should n't have let this blog untouched...i've got no time :(

my last post entry was on 24th of june n that was two months ago!!now we're starting on a brand new september 2009!!how time flies...i'm officially a wife for a whole 3months and 10days!!nope, dont ask me whether im pregnant or not yet??do u even care??

what shall i say about my life rite now??im super boring i guess...not that i'm boring doing my duty as a wife, no, but i dunno how to describe it...applying for jobs take me ages to do so..compiling portfolios and preparing resumes got me thinking twice!!currently im happy doing what im doing...no work stress related or no work loads to worry about except for the fact that *you-know-what* issues happening around me lately...those that are close to me knows me very well....(shopping every month- clothes, shoes and books- that's a must!!)

sometimes i wonder, studying architecture- is it my biggest mistake in my life????what do u say about it??i say NO!! the biggest mistake in my life is to study architecture in UM...architecture is what i love, and becoz of that, i feel so down and hell lot of pressure with the outcome result...stressful and hurt makes me no good and nowhere!!applying job with a cgpa like that makes it even worst...no, i've seen many yg apply job even cgpa lagi teruk dari aku, n they've got the job...but being me, i'm so malu to even apply...maybe becoz, this has never happen to me before...such a big failure in life...maybe one day, i'll teach my kids to accept failure and dun always think to win...

looking back at my past exam results, i did well...not that i'm being proud here...but what i'm trying to say is what a failure can do to me!!

1. i've got 5 A's for my UPSR-even selected as tokoh kokurikulum daerah sepang

2. 8 A's in PMR (tho i've got B in arab-but i dun care coz arab was never a priority subject back then)

3. 6 A1 for my spm-ahha not so good but good enough for me yang x study langsung...plus all the A's are strong subjects!!

4. i get 4.00 during my matrics - which shocked me!!and hell no, i didnt get a scholarship on that!!that suckssssssssss

5. and a *.** for my degree??????????????(hahaha dpt blink blink eyes) tp not bad laa...bersyukur ngn result tuh sbb xdelaa teruk sgt sgt n bagus sgt sgt...alhamdulillah :) tp still i want better than that!!

now im looking forward to do my master...i need to prove that i can do it!!i applied for MBA which is not architecturally related, and putting aside my part II first...not that i'm not going to continue with it, but just let it be for now...i WILL and WILL be an architect someday, just wait and see...it's just that the time is not for me rite now, just soon enough!!inshaallah kalo dapat further study and abeskan, then only i apply kerje...cari experience utk beberapa tahun, then apply for part II-biar lambat asalkan dapat, kerana cita-cita itu takkan lari ke mana...kita yang mengejarinya :)

p/s: i do freelance job rite now with minimal charges...if the works do not satisfy you, then it's FREE...but i cume akan sketch and design je...no computer graphic...i buat kerana suke!!sebab i suke melukis, bukan suke gune computer!!renovations and plans_do contact me

019-2692080

h.e.a.r.t

dear my heart n my soul...
thanks for being with me all these while...
tru the endless hardship...
i feel so blessed :-)
oh heart,
please dont feel hurt...
even tho i know sometimes it's hurt...
but heart, try to learn my soul..
then only heart and soul can be together :-)

lovelife anyone?

what is love?
where is love?
why do u love?
how to love?
do u bother to love?
ever stuck in love?
do u really need love?
i dont really know what love is :)

falling apart :-(

goshhh...

i must say that im melting down slowlyyyy...

i havent finished my plan yet, as it keep on changing and changing..i know i should be tying up the plan, by now...but still i kept on changing it no matter how the lecturers said that the planning wise are there...urgghhh...i dunno, i think becoz i dont want it to look too bulky...yet, im still stuck in between... :-(

i really need some refreshment rite now...something that really can blow my mind, and make me hocus focus myself without even thinking something else...wished there's this sort of vacuum that can suck away all the stresses and other disturbation around me...

submission is just a few days away...like 5 days to be specific...and again, i have nadaaa...completely, totally nadaaa...a BIG nadaaa!!!ok maybe im a liltle bit complaining here, and yes, i know its my mistake, not to say i didnt start it early, its maybe becoz the mood im having rite now...but heyyy!!!afterall its raya mode :-( just thinking about the open house i'll be helding this coming saturday, makes me even sick...i dunno if i can cope with that...lets just see, and watch me crumbling melting down :-(

owhhh, Allah...please give me strength...send me your blessing in every decision that i've made :-)

why fight over destiny???

why do people always keep regretting their destiny???

u can never fight over destiny...it will always win no matter how hard u try...

if u go against destiny, u will go tumbling down :( and your whole life, will be in full of sorrows, regretting and not appreciating what u've got...and at the end of the day, it will turn u into someone ungrateful to God...

like sometimes...take for an example, u love someone, but then that someone didnt respond u like u did...and yes, i have been tru that phase...it was long time ago...during my high school days...good old days...yes i did regret my actions, its not that im sad that he didnt turn out to like me, but i regretted that i make a silly and stupid mistakes!!but when looked back, all these really helped me or changed me into someone better...or atleast :p

sometimes i dont get it, when people turned u down, u shud take it and leaveit...its not becoz they dont like u, but becoz u need to realize that u were not destined to be together...why is it so hard to believe in destiny...always remember, us as a servant of Allah, must always redha with His doings...there must be a hikmah beyond that...try to think positively :) then only, u'll become someone wiser...never question or pray for others unhappiness...it is truely wrong...as for me, if u really love someone, then u shud let it go...u will always want that person to be happy with the one she/he loves...by doing that, u've get the most respectful and faithful reaction from others and people will judge u based on what u do...

stop making fool of yourself, in the end, u will loose...


p/s:i loved a boy, and i like it, but i suffered...but it's all now history :)
so if i can do it, why not u??come to think of it :)

poems+journey of life=complete me!!!

gonna::hit::a::try

i live for yesterday,
i live for today,
i live for tomorrow...
and tomorrow's coming too soon...
never let me breathe...
too cruel to even let me breathe...
too cruel to let me in...
too cruel to let me go...
yet im stuck in between...
in or go???

shaken inside,
the fact that i have to face the truth...
haunted by nightmares...
burden with unaccomplished dreams...
the pride that needs to hold...
im about to lose control...

and if tomorrow never come...
will i ever get the chance...
to live for yesterday...
and im sure it's just way too impossible...
no matter what...
face the journey ahead...
and you will find...
the path u created...
is about to visible...
in front of u...

i hate the fact that i have to survive...
to be strong...
to let go...
to step forward...
and never look back...
live for another day...
and just...
let bygone be bygone...

coz when it's time,
then i'll be proudly saying this...
"i had give it a try"
so this time around...
all i need to do is...
gonna::hit::a::try =)

again, as i looked through my blog, i realized that im always writing something about the journey i've been through in my life...yet, as im getting older, im getting wiser with all the experiences that i've gone through...looking back, i noticed that some of the poems that i wrote are related to my hard life either as an architecture student or in love, studies, friendships and so on...and this poem was written during my "recovering time" (that is when i failed my studio, and i didnt have the courage to move on, i cried all day, got no one to share my feelings, i mean like sharing it personally, so i kept it to myself and started to write poems and its been a while since i last wrote one)...to be frank, most of the poems that i wrote, i dont have any intention to share it with anyone and i kept it in a book or write it on a piece of paper, then it will go missing...and studio always give me nightmares...im scared if i can do it, if i can pass it...all these thoughts been teasing my feelings, sometimes i cant cope with it, that i just need the air to breathe...even after all these while, i still not have the confidence yet so all i hope is that, im going to gain my confidence for this coming new semester which starts aroung july 2008...till then...daaaa!!!

xoxo,
pray for me,
rauda

p/s : this was taken from my other blog which im going to terminate it since i no longer wished to waste my time by having two blogs...