One Day...

I'll be a fashion designer with my own label, Anarauda Collections. After giving out a lot of thoughts and considerations, I guess fashion has always been my dreams. Opening a boutique cafe/online store that sells my entire exclusive collections is my goal. Of course, most of my friends ended/pursuing up with being an architect, but I choose to be bold.

I've been down due to several nightmares I went through my whole journey back when I was an architecture student. The impact of the huge failure still rest within my inner strength, that somehow it trapped there for God knows how long. I need to wake up and leave everything in the past, after all once you fall, it doesn't mean for the rest of your life you are always at the bottom. My baby is my motivation to keep me carry on with my life.

The only problem is, i need to join/find classes on how to sew a single piece of handkerchief. hehe

Just to post a few of my designs. Wait for more!!

Important Wishing Lists

So I've put Lulu to sleep, hubby's off to wedding with a bunch of friends, now I'm left at home, because he didn't invite me. Well, he did invite, but I don't like rushing myself to get ready for a last minute invitation, do you? After all, I think I should let him spend his quality times with friends, if you ever call that quality?hahaha

And again, let's list down what I want to do for the next few months ahead:

1) Definitely, I wanna start buying myself new cloths for new wardrobe. Oh come on! I need to pamper myself as well. Been buying stuffs for Lulu 'Aayesha only. Mummy's gotta enjoy too!

2) High heels and wedges!!God, how I miss wearing one. And did I tell you that my one and only favorite wedges got damaged by my sister? She borrowed it and ran it through water, hell, all the skin started to peel off!!pfft

3) Go for a holiday, just the 3 of us. And this is a must! Because he promised me so when I was pregnant with Lulu, that after I gave birth, he's gonna bring me somewhere. Ok, I'm waiting.

4) Design and decorate our new home. I don't know when we're going to move in, but I know I want it to be as soon as possible. Because I think it's about enough we live at our parents'. I need my privacy, yet now, we have our own family to deal with.

5) ...................

I don't know. For the time being, let's save these for me to catch up with. I hope I won't break my wishes! If I got anything else in my mind, I'll keep it update later.

p/s: Anyone wants to sell their second hand baby-stuffs like baby bouncer, Quinny Zapp and etc? Must be in good condition, because we are vain that way :p

welcome new year, goodbye haters :)

fuhhh...

2 times facing new year!!first maal hijrah and now...hehe...goodbye 2008 and welcome 2009!!
hope this new year, all my resolutions will come true...ameen :)

anyways, didn't really celebrate the new year except for going out and picnicing with a whole bunch of my ex-studiomates...while waiting for the fireworks ofcoz, at the peak top of rumah Datuk Bandar...i cooked nasi goreng cantonese and prepared some sandwiches for them...i think everything went smoothly and talk about nonsense all the time ehh...pictures, no pictures...or maybe coming soon as atiq was the only one who's doing the snapping...hehehe...

ok...now i'm off topic...

i cannot sleep tonite, i dunno...i've been pushing myself to sleep...turn left, turn right, trying to get the best position, but nada...nothing really works...i guess maybe i'm a bit sad...i dunno...i feel empty inside and still wondering what was i really thinking??i know it's a new year, and that we should feel happy to face a new challenge ahead, but no...deep inside i feel like so low...prolly becoz i've realized what good can someone else be to you...keeping someone else for good is one thing that everyone wants!!needless to say, u dont want people to talk bad things about you...even it happens to the one you know that they are not really like that...and all you can do is nothing, not even to defend, becoz you dont want the crowd to know that u are against anyone...so might as well shut my mouth, seal and never say a word...huh!!that's hard...becoz deep down it hurts to know the truth of the all the fakeness around you...

surprisingly, people can act differently infront of others when the truth is that, they never like each other...that's the art that i need to learn...maybe i need to learn how to make fun of others infront of everyone, or maybe not...becoz typical me is not like that, even if i dont like the person, i never said it out loud, let go of making fun of it...that's not my way...u never know, one day u've become one like them...like saying you dont like smokers, then ended up u getting involve with smokers...what good can that be to u??and u eat your own words then...by that time, it's not you who do the laughing, but people around you....

so my only wish for this new year is, KEEP ME AWAY FROM ALL THESE TALAM DUA MUKA ORG...ngeeee :)

hari raya??*errrr*

owhh no0oo!!

i can't believe it!!

hari raya is coming, and i still have nothing fabulous to wear on that special day!!!
i mean nothing EXACTLY okay!! *sigh*

i haven't got my baju raya yet, my tudung raya, my kasut raya and what-not!!owhhh~~im soo0o not celebrating this hari raya with the same old baju raya i've worn in the past few years!! (okay, so now i'm a liltle bit exaggerating on that...ahahah...lol :p) it's not that i haven't done that before, its just that, hello i'm supposed to like fashion and be fashionable(well maybe i'm not :p), and here i am, i never care less about my baju for hari raya!!so what do u think??should i get myself one??hmmmm

when i told ibu that i need a kasut raya, ibu went all mad *urghhh*(blame my shopping on shoes lately). and i said, i bought all those shoes using the money that i've got from my teaching and so it's different.rite???okay i know it's not a lot for me to brag, but hey, it gave me enough satisfaction to just wear something that u own it yourself...u deserves that really...so sometimes, u need to pamper yourself with *errrr* shoessss???ahahaha

i dunno, i know the chances to get a new shoe for hari raya is tersangatlahh tipis *tapi aku masih mengharap lagi!!*hahahha~~i hope my father is reading this while his blog-hopping...wakakaka...i know it wont happen tho :p

and to make things worst, i asked ibu that i really need a baju raya!!hahahah...i dun mind not having a baju raya but sometimes i do mind...actually, i want this kebaya nyonya so badly, so i made it as my excuse for hari raya...hahahha...so basically, i dun really mind having it after Eid...
however, i'm lying if i'm saying that i dont crave for all these things..after all im a human being~~and to be specific on top of all that ~~aku nih pompan...so ofcoz i'll need all that...hehehe
so guys~~buy me buy me :p hahaha

okay, here goes my wishing list for raya :p :-
1. baju kebaya nyonya
2. shayla
3. stilettoes
4. wallet (prada, LV~haha, coach, marc by marc jacobs??)
5. handbag (radley, jane shilton or lulu??)
6. shades??ahaaa...jaz aku nk nih :p suro akak ko blanje gakss
7. skirtsssss (i mean it, with lots of "s") :p
8. topssss (with lots of "s" too :p)
9. jeans - esprit in my mind now
10. wrist watch -okay, i really do need this, becoz my wrist watch rosak :-(
11. my studio design?? *errrrr* lets not count on that :p
aghhhhh...if i go all the way, then the wishing list will ended up in 10 pages...heh..so i'll stop it rite here for now :p


p/s: how i wished i've got 10 boyfriends in my hand...hahaha :p (it's just a wish, im quite a lstick-to-one-person type what!!duhhhh~~ :D)