falling apart :-(

goshhh...

i must say that im melting down slowlyyyy...

i havent finished my plan yet, as it keep on changing and changing..i know i should be tying up the plan, by now...but still i kept on changing it no matter how the lecturers said that the planning wise are there...urgghhh...i dunno, i think becoz i dont want it to look too bulky...yet, im still stuck in between... :-(

i really need some refreshment rite now...something that really can blow my mind, and make me hocus focus myself without even thinking something else...wished there's this sort of vacuum that can suck away all the stresses and other disturbation around me...

submission is just a few days away...like 5 days to be specific...and again, i have nadaaa...completely, totally nadaaa...a BIG nadaaa!!!ok maybe im a liltle bit complaining here, and yes, i know its my mistake, not to say i didnt start it early, its maybe becoz the mood im having rite now...but heyyy!!!afterall its raya mode :-( just thinking about the open house i'll be helding this coming saturday, makes me even sick...i dunno if i can cope with that...lets just see, and watch me crumbling melting down :-(

owhhh, Allah...please give me strength...send me your blessing in every decision that i've made :-)

let's go shopping online :)

well yeahh...

recently i've been crazy into kebayas..
remember i wore kebaye for hari raya...

n yes...i would like to share u a website that sells kebayas online...
its cool for those who're living outside malaysia...
and if u r a close friend of mine, i can always bring u there :)
go checkout this website here...

this aunty is a peranakan lady, who's been selling kebayas for like ages...
the materials are good, n the prices differs too :)...it differs with what type of material it is...
but as for a student like me, u can always go for the affordable kebayas,starting from 200rm only!!!

and hey, did i mention that Anna Sui also bought a kebaya from her???well ofcoz she bought the most expensives one :p heeeeee

and if u r a fan of shaylas or mostly known for selendang in bahasa malaysia, u can always contact me...a friend of mine, is selling it at a verrrrry good price :)
take a look at the pic below:

u can always drop by at her shopping website :) here

countdown!!!

cant wait for britney's new video premier!!!
W.O.M.A.N.I.Z.E.R!!!
it's going to happen today :)
lalaladidadida :)

why fight over destiny???

why do people always keep regretting their destiny???

u can never fight over destiny...it will always win no matter how hard u try...

if u go against destiny, u will go tumbling down :( and your whole life, will be in full of sorrows, regretting and not appreciating what u've got...and at the end of the day, it will turn u into someone ungrateful to God...

like sometimes...take for an example, u love someone, but then that someone didnt respond u like u did...and yes, i have been tru that phase...it was long time ago...during my high school days...good old days...yes i did regret my actions, its not that im sad that he didnt turn out to like me, but i regretted that i make a silly and stupid mistakes!!but when looked back, all these really helped me or changed me into someone better...or atleast :p

sometimes i dont get it, when people turned u down, u shud take it and leaveit...its not becoz they dont like u, but becoz u need to realize that u were not destined to be together...why is it so hard to believe in destiny...always remember, us as a servant of Allah, must always redha with His doings...there must be a hikmah beyond that...try to think positively :) then only, u'll become someone wiser...never question or pray for others unhappiness...it is truely wrong...as for me, if u really love someone, then u shud let it go...u will always want that person to be happy with the one she/he loves...by doing that, u've get the most respectful and faithful reaction from others and people will judge u based on what u do...

stop making fool of yourself, in the end, u will loose...


p/s:i loved a boy, and i like it, but i suffered...but it's all now history :)
so if i can do it, why not u??come to think of it :)

more pictures!!!!

the hari raya did not stop there...remember that i've told u we went to cameron to enjoy tea??yeahhh, we did, n here are some of the picas!!

cameron is famous with its beautiful flowers!!

n food...hey, noticed my tummy?? :p its flat..hahahayummy-licious

at the boh tea centre

carrot cake!!but i didnt eat it...

my hot choc n tuna sandwiches =)

makan-makan till u stuffed up

semua muke kenyang

happy couple 1

happy couple 2 (erk yeke??)

went to the next tea shop...this time its the cameron bharat teashop

making orders

ayah cute kn?? :p

last shot before heading down(credit to ruqayya)

budak nih merajuk ngn bapak die (credit to ruqayya)

with omma (credit to sera)

supposed to pose, but turned out candid..heh (credit to qaya??erkk)

many many picas of us :D

hari raya started off with salam-salaman n maaf-maafan...n not to forget, crying too in happy ways...or sometimes a liltle bit sad??

pokcu with tokmak salam-salam,maaf-maaf,halal menghalal =)

and then, pokda got his chance pulak

this one is between my cousin and my cu :p

while tokbah, starting to sengseng his baju, to enjoy the food (ignoring the surrounding!!)haha :D

while for us, camwhoring session happened at the living area...ofcoz, there's many many faces of sa'eed, followed by me, nana n bulbul...hahaha

sa'eed nampak baik sgt kan??dont be fooled :D

always wanted to take off his kopiah!!haishh :p

noticed their face expressions??

sa'eed with his aunty blossom

smiles cheerfully \\(0_o)//

tgk ape tuh??

tokmak's crying when rumaisa called~~typical tokmak heh :p

he does look like a girl sometimes :p

went off to malacca and muar(visiting bulbul), and saeed's not feeling very well...pity pity :-(

bulbul's is now a fat cat!!wonder if he has high cholestrol??hmmm

adik takut that we're going to take bulbul back :D

sum up!!

hey!!
it is slightly the 4th day of syawal as i'm writing this one out!!

goshhh...lotsa foods, visiting and what not...eventho it's boring :'(

ofcoz, the night before raya, we spent our time in seremban, helping tokmak's out...cooking the dishes...heheh...and owhhh!!did i mention that hari raya is so0oo plain boring??

i mean yeah!!!this time around, i had two of my sisters away, and my other relatives didint turn up becoz of this situation that we can't avoid...and yes, it's been the five of us plus sa'eed and family only!!and make count the cu ain's family and pokda too!!the rest were not there =(

so u see, what's the point of celebrating hari raya when there's not enough people gathering around??

and tokmak's being tokmak, still cooking 10 ekor ayam!!and that's alot i must say since there's only a few of us!!and ayah's complaining that everything didnt taste rite??*urghhh* like what didnt taste rite ayah??hahahha...complaining and complaining when u r sleeping around only ehh??erkkk...or rather to say both of u and pokda were studying!!!STUDYING (make that a caps lock) in the middle of hari raya...hahahah...and owh!!us students were lazying around :p

after complaining that raya was so boring, and i went to sleep...heh, mind u, it was only 10am in the morning at that time!!and so, at 11am, ayah said, "get ready in 10 mins, we're going to shah alam"...and so yeah, it turned out 30mins, after packing up all the things, food especially :p heh!!

but still, we need to dropped by at our home sweet home, to avoid the foods getting rotten...and off we went to shah alam, rite after zohor!!when we arrived, maklong and family were asleep!!hahaha...see i told ya, i dunno what went wrong, everyone seems to be strucked by a so-called-sleepy-virus!!and again, it was us only...yeah, with makndak's not around anymore, and uncle hadi and aunty shamsina went back to pilah...huh, so rite after feeding myself up, went to sleep AGAIN!!and yes again :p ok this time, it's not only becoz i'm so boring or what, but i felt dizzy and so uneasy, plus it was very2 hot...yeah, with the fan not working...and did i mention that i was wearing a black n white kebaye??hahaha :D

the next day, we went back to malacca and muar...not to say that muar has anyone, but yes we do have..and it's bulbul!!mind you, he's so big and huge now!!!owhhhh. we so missed him around :'( i'll upload his pics later...

and the poor-thing-saeed seemed to catch a flu...and so, he'll miss the trip to cameron highlands tomorrow!!huhu...yes, we've been to cameron highlands several times!!it's like a family occasion...call us carzy or what, we're going there just to drink tea...i dunno!!we will just go there over and over again just to enjoy the tea!!there's something about that place, that really makes me forget all about my stress, the loads im having tru....when u r there, u feel very free...and it's really mind blowing...owhhh...i cant wait for morning =)

there!!!it makes me smile, after a-so-boring hari raya...that really makes my day!!!!!HUH