I'm officially a desparate housewife :p

Ever noticed my status at facebook?

it's time to get back to real designing world!!house renovations and fashion designs!!20 hours ago

Then I got some feed backs from my dear friends. Some saying :

Famiza Borhan

ko dah dpt keje ke

Yesterday at 12:15pm · Delete

Nurhazwani Abdullah

keje kat mane odahh? cm best je dgr

Yesterday at 1:22pm · Delete

And what did i reply to them??

Rauda Lee

if u consider freelance as a work..:p xstart job hunting lgi :p will do will do.. :)

Yesterday at 4:03pm · Delete

I dunno whether quitting my job now is really a good decision I've made in my life.but taking my husband's advice, I'd follow anything he wanted me to do. At times, i feel that I'm useless. No directions, no one wants me, even someone is laughing at me, they feel very happy for me. For them, it's a good news, no? perhaps I'm wrong, But my inner instinct told me that they're talking about me. Yes, and they did. :( Deep inside I'm melting. I started to feel the hatred around me. Right now on, all i want is your trust. I don't care what others may think of me, but all i care is you, trusting me or not?

I know, this is just the beginning, and yet there's always something major happening soon. I need to be strong and ignores everything around me. I won't do the talking no more, but let the people around me do the judging. They'll know who's wrong, who's right. After all, I don't have anything to lose.

Oh Allah, please be with me!! :(

I may look strong outside, but inside only You knows better.

maybe you dont wanna read this post!

dear readers,

first of all, i would like to wish everyone SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR N BATIN before it's too late.yes!this is like my very first post after hari raya.

secondly, i welcomed everyone of u to my newest layout!cool isn't it, no?well at least i do think so.all thanks to miss roxy geds geds!ok, i've said earlier to give you something in return eh?just wait eh.i'll post it to u later, even tho we live under one roof.

lastly, i need to think of something else to write!

daaaaaa :)

goBLOGging!!

boring bile bukak je blog nih rasa nak bercerita pasal diriku...tapi memang ye pon kene gitu sebab nama blog ini pon anarauda :p jadi pasti rasa basi tentang diriku...aku pon dah naik basi tengok blog nih (basi disini bukan bermaksud aku nak tukar kepada blog lain mahupon tidak mahu lagi menulis tentang diriku, tapi basi disini kerana aku rase layout blog ini sudah tidak lagi dapat menampung keperluan asas semasa) yelahh, traffic blog ini jugak telah melonjak naik dengan kehadiran pembaca-pembaca seperti dari kalangan keluargaku sahaja :D (SAPA LAA NAK BACA BLOG KO SENGAL) :psekali sekala pasti aku ingin memberi update gambar terbaru ku agar mereka yg membaca dapat mengubat rindunya padaku!heh :p

oleh kerana terlalu teruja untuk menukar layout baru lagi, maka aku memerlukan beberapa khidmat pakar diluar sane...setelah hampir setahun aku menulis blog, aku maseh tidak reti bagaimana nak upload features features yang menarik untuk tatapan umum :( haihhhh sungguh sungguh aku beritahu, aku tidak tahu (mungkin akibat kurang makan tahu??tapi takpe, baru semalam aku ke tesco dan membeli tahu telur untuk aku tumis bersama sayur goreng nanti!!pasti bertambah sedap masakan itu nanti)...ok balik kepada motif asal...

1. tolong bagi aku pilihan layout mana and mana aku perlu pilih and dimana n bagaimana nak menukarnya...oleh itu, aku dengan sukacitanya, akan memberi hadiah worth RM50 bagi sesiapa yang dapat designkan sesuatu blog yang luarbiasa n dapat memenuhi citarasa saya...malah, saya juga mempunyai item item yang boleh diguna pakai untuk menambahkan lagi ciri-ciri anarauda...

2. contact me asap, and let's talk business!!(just place your comment in my box, or give me a call)

gambar dibawah sedikit sebanyak dapat membantu taste dan pilihan citarasa yang mungkin berkaitrapat dalam pembikinan blog ini...highheels, overcoat/cardigan, fashion, travel and etc...i love funky colors too!!or shall i say kinky pinkehhhh??

i soo0oo love the pose!!feels like another ANTM!!hehehe ok aku perasan!!

p/s : cuba teka bapa banyak aku telah spend untuk bulan ini sahaja??itu belom termasuk shopping raya!!aku xbeli ape pon lagi untuk raya...waaaaaaaaaaaaa...even nak bayar dzullclassique lagi pasni...harharhar...plus nk sedia duit raya!!haihhh

MBA (masa boring anda)

blogging now seems a bit challenging for a lazy-ass like me yahhh...getting my ass to sit down and write something, is a major problem, let alone putting my damn fingers on the keyboard and type is yet another story...hahhhhh!!tired...ok i know i know...i should n't have let this blog untouched...i've got no time :(

my last post entry was on 24th of june n that was two months ago!!now we're starting on a brand new september 2009!!how time flies...i'm officially a wife for a whole 3months and 10days!!nope, dont ask me whether im pregnant or not yet??do u even care??

what shall i say about my life rite now??im super boring i guess...not that i'm boring doing my duty as a wife, no, but i dunno how to describe it...applying for jobs take me ages to do so..compiling portfolios and preparing resumes got me thinking twice!!currently im happy doing what im doing...no work stress related or no work loads to worry about except for the fact that *you-know-what* issues happening around me lately...those that are close to me knows me very well....(shopping every month- clothes, shoes and books- that's a must!!)

sometimes i wonder, studying architecture- is it my biggest mistake in my life????what do u say about it??i say NO!! the biggest mistake in my life is to study architecture in UM...architecture is what i love, and becoz of that, i feel so down and hell lot of pressure with the outcome result...stressful and hurt makes me no good and nowhere!!applying job with a cgpa like that makes it even worst...no, i've seen many yg apply job even cgpa lagi teruk dari aku, n they've got the job...but being me, i'm so malu to even apply...maybe becoz, this has never happen to me before...such a big failure in life...maybe one day, i'll teach my kids to accept failure and dun always think to win...

looking back at my past exam results, i did well...not that i'm being proud here...but what i'm trying to say is what a failure can do to me!!

1. i've got 5 A's for my UPSR-even selected as tokoh kokurikulum daerah sepang

2. 8 A's in PMR (tho i've got B in arab-but i dun care coz arab was never a priority subject back then)

3. 6 A1 for my spm-ahha not so good but good enough for me yang x study langsung...plus all the A's are strong subjects!!

4. i get 4.00 during my matrics - which shocked me!!and hell no, i didnt get a scholarship on that!!that suckssssssssss

5. and a *.** for my degree??????????????(hahaha dpt blink blink eyes) tp not bad laa...bersyukur ngn result tuh sbb xdelaa teruk sgt sgt n bagus sgt sgt...alhamdulillah :) tp still i want better than that!!

now im looking forward to do my master...i need to prove that i can do it!!i applied for MBA which is not architecturally related, and putting aside my part II first...not that i'm not going to continue with it, but just let it be for now...i WILL and WILL be an architect someday, just wait and see...it's just that the time is not for me rite now, just soon enough!!inshaallah kalo dapat further study and abeskan, then only i apply kerje...cari experience utk beberapa tahun, then apply for part II-biar lambat asalkan dapat, kerana cita-cita itu takkan lari ke mana...kita yang mengejarinya :)

p/s: i do freelance job rite now with minimal charges...if the works do not satisfy you, then it's FREE...but i cume akan sketch and design je...no computer graphic...i buat kerana suke!!sebab i suke melukis, bukan suke gune computer!!renovations and plans_do contact me

019-2692080

sapa reti wat murtabak muke alien angkat tgn??

two weeks in a row without internet is too much..how can i describe it ehh...it's like life without s**!!ahhaaaa...i miss surfing and blog-hopping, updating my blog tho yeahh i know i know the blog is boring...yeah..u xperlu bgtau i yang tuh...

oh btw, yes we did went to langkawi for 5days straight, and i'm so malas to upload the pictures...it's not becoz i malas, but i think that the pictures are so valuable for the both of us that we remain is as part of our secret collection...errr yeke!!padahal banyak gile gambar x amik..hahha..yg sebenarnye banyak sgt gambar dlm bilik...so u know what kan!!! :D langkawi was fun except for tak sempat nak g island hopping...and i must tell u, tm resort sucksss!!die tak maintain langsung...i mean, the room shud be ok, but if they maintain it i dun mind...imagine to try and error nk flash WC, when *u-know-what-the-smell* is in the air!!!hahahahahhahahahahahha lucky those who smell the natural freshener! :p

last week, ibu asked mr superman and i to go and learn cooking at the community college in kajang...HUHHHHHHHHHHHH!!ape mr superman pon kene g sekali ke???adeiii...but of coz we went jugak laa...altho at first, he was a bit shamed with all the ladies and he was the only one around, but he managed to remain calm...after all, everything's being paid by ibu, coz she really want the recipes..hahaha..so learnt how to make samosa, donuts and mutabak ayam!!omg...dont think rooling a samosa into a triangle shape is that easy, try to make it yourself!!a bit too much portion of the feelings, can turn the samosa into SENTOSA!!hahahaha..ok kau ngarut..kalo bentuk x jdi tiga segi, then salah laa tuh...

came to part nak tebar murtabak...hahahaha...i was laughing like mad to this one aunty, because the roti yang die tebar jadi bentuk muke alien, with eyes and mouth too!!hahahha...then when she wanted to do another one, i said hahahaha..nk wat lagi ke??the she answered, kali ni nak wat anak die plak...tadi bapak die..ok that aunty is so funny lahh,eventho her face is quite the serious one laaahh!!hahahaha...then gelak punye gelak org lain punye hasil kerje, last muratabak aku jadi roti canai...aku nye sorg plak tuhh...even mr superman passed!!tambah malu lagi, bila suami ku mengaku pada semua org bahawa itu adalah aku punye!!wakakakkaa...but i dun mind, becoz everyone puji him and said i beruntung dpt suami suke nk masak...well, i cakap..ofcoz laa sbb ibu mertua sudah pakse kan pegi...hahahahha :D



after that, we went shopping at the gardens...and yeahh...here's our camwhoring pose!!enjoy...kalo nyampah scroll laju laju... :D

pssttttt : comel pulak laa wifey org ni..HAHAHAHAHHA gelak mamposssssss

nak gak g UK :(

staying at the in laws is so much fun..enjoyed eating the food!!heh :p

and owhh...updates are a bit slow, yes cos it's hard to get connected here in bandar baru bangi...like of coz laaa...it's "bandar" baru bangi..hahaha..but yes, hidup x terganggu...except for im missing reading the blogs i used to read everyday...

right now, lepaking at pekantulis..doing ladidadida what not..yes u get it..im a cashier n im loving it...hahahah...maybe later i'll do some marketing...n after things getting serious, i'll start my own business...oiwhhhh..need to find some money for rolling!!!

nex week, in case u dunno, im going to langkawi with the whole family..cant wait..looking forward for island hopping this time around...HOPE SO!!but somehow, there's this one particular person is going to UK this coming saturday, n yes nana...let's see what we can do with zaid..AHAHAHAH...naseb baik ade nana and the kidss..cute!!!

tomorrow, out again to eat seafood- jgn lupe confirm your availability alrite..i hope by sms/call coz i shall not be opening this blog for quite sometimes soon!!

n owhh-this weekend kitorg off ke mantin n malacca!!marriage life is so much funnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!! :) kalo tau dh kawen lame dh kan sayang??

the abayish hangout!!

OH YESSS!!
had happy days these few days...spending sweet times with hubby and friends...surprisingly i'm enjoying doing anything for hubby...like basuh baju, prepared breakfast n dinner, sometimes cook for him too...well, let's hope mende nih berterusan..wakakaka..biaselaaa masih baru lagi kan...and the best thing is, never thought that being a housewife is so much fun!!!!!!!!!!!!imagine to go out shopping and enjoy with family and friends while hubby went to work...no no excuse me!!i'm not a spender..i dont spend someone elses money...i spend money that i own by myself..and yes..dun ask me where did i get it...like i need to disclose everything lahh kan???!!

yesterday, celebrated birthday nourel...blast her with a surprise party at the green box, BB plaza...wahhhh best n syiokk melalak kannn!!here, i've grabbed some picas from farah's Facebook..excuse the bad quality, we're using handphones only..i forgot to bring my slr lahhh!! :(

preparing time...tiup belonn..susah wehh!!!
cake hias sendiri..so rupenye jdi laa macam nihh..hahah..tp leh tahan sedap gakk laaa!!
finaz n farahfarah with the birthday girl!!

me- dengan jerawat terbaruu---wahhh hadiah perkahwinan dr mr superman...wakakaka

last pose...before going back home!!blasttttttttt

best kawen ngn u, xpressure i suro keje keje..hahaha...wpon biaselaa for starting point x byk mane, but insya allah mencukupi kalo berkat rezekinye..most importantly, make a lot of doa and never miss solat..kerana, rezeki akan dtg bila kite mengerjakan solat...sedangkan rasulullah tekankan, solat berjemaat apabila tiba waktunye..tinggalkan segala urusan..seronok kalo pergi makkah, semua akan berlari ke masjid tinggalkan kedai tanpa perlu tutup dan yakin kedai x kene curi..sepatutnye kite juga perlu begitu...yakin yakin dan yakin..dan kalo kene curi pon, niatkn sedekah..erkkkk!!hahaha...but alhamdulillah, sepanjang aku meletakkn agama dan solat dihadapan, segalanya jadi mudah...sembahyang di tengah-tengah alam..kalo kat malaysia org pandang pelik, tp kat luar negara, this thing is very common..like the other day, at the gardens, xde surau, so g amik wudhu n solat next to the lift...the non-muslim xkesah pon...rasenye yg lebih2 ialah org islam kite kan??dun feel ashame when it comes to serving ourselves to Allah :) tgk aku dh membebel ngarut...


p/s : sebenarnye sekarang nih tgh tunggu ibu pulang...lamenyee dh nk dekat 2 jam dh nihh...nak g shopping at the gardens!!!!!!!!!!!!!yeahhhh :p